almost a month and Ramadan is just around the corner. its been another a while since i post anything here. the last post was about the late Nadia.

a month after the new semester begin. last week was the convocation week. i used to have my chanced but i blew it. nothing much to complain about it. now i have another 3 years to be there.

I'm fucking annoying with the course mates, especially my group mates. we suppose to have a meeting to set up the title for our assignment. i told them about this a week ago, we gonna meet tonight for the last deciding about the tittle... go to the library and find all the book that you guys need.

but that melayu, i mean orang yang layu. none of them were going to library and none of them are here. fuck off !!!

sometimes i just don't want to take this responsibility to be a leader of any group. i know I'm better with any assignment individually. i hate people who are so lazy and keep complaining. plagiarism is a cancer for those who practice it. and i have uni student who are so lazy to read materials in English and just used the translator to translated all the material.

I'm piss off and fuck off !!! end of the story.

"selamat menyambut the upcoming ramadhan"

A thousand words won't bring you back i know because I've tried, neither will a million tears i know because i've cried.

A thousand words won't bring you back i know because i've tried, neither will a million tears i know because I've cried. 

al-fatihah to you nur nadia salehuddin

i don't really know what i wanna talk about, just it been a year you leave us. but i never forget you. yup...i'm moving on. still you are part of my life... and i don't really lets part of my life easily.

"Word are easy to say, feeling are hard to express.

Photo are easy to snap, memory and moment always gonna be there."

Hey Dusty Owner

hey dusty page !!!

where have your owner gone missing ?

i don't know... people just said he gone missing.

some said he went for a good holidays and didn't find the way back.

but there some said that he lost in his own world...

there no ways back home and he'll stay there permanently.

some said, he just don't want to be found. and he love to be like that.

there some said, they saw him, he called him...

but he just look at them smiling and walk away.

i don't know where is he.

but i know he is there somewhere.

its just he not want to be found...

at least...

at least for now.

may we pray for him

may he found himself

live

love

work

play

come

go

leave

stay

Unknown

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will.

You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts.

You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future

" I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. "

its gonna be a fresh new start. and its gonna be a long road to go.

its will start and its will end. its just matters how things will end. i want/wish/hope things that happen in past won't be happen again in future.

First Time In Life

salam awal muharram / maal hijrah / happy hijrahi new year !!!

1- i just played my first ever futsal game last weekend. I'm very happy with it. if before this i just heard bout futsal, but by playing it for the first time was a very quite amazing feeling. scored a few goals !!! let go a few goals !!! make fun of people !!! but more than less, people make fun of me as I'm playing as a goalie. yup people !!! its officially & publicly announced that I'm really scare of the ball during my goalie session. hehehehe

2- I'm not with baby mia anymore :( when its time to let go, its time to letting her go. a little of sadness is here and there, but i know she will be in a good care. i done a lot of thinking before, its not that i don't love it or so, but i wanna she to be used, not just keep it save in her bag. what do i know, at time like this... there are more things to be done. and i guess, i won't be accompany by any camera for this time around. bye bye baby mia, my lovely first SLR !!! see you when i see you !!! cheers mate !!!

3- just now, i had my first ever motorcycle accident in my life. as a result, a got a wrist sprain, a scratch here & there, a little bruises and plus a few deep cut near my knee. for that, i got another 2 stitches on the knee, a dressing that i don't really like it (just cos it look funny + look like mat rempit) and a sprain wrist that make still wake up right know cos the pain !!! i can't imagine it !!! btw, i was heading home and i made a mistake while i break my ride. as a result, i been throw by my ride. alhamdullilah, there was no car behind or in front of me. and alhamdullilah as well cos nothing serious happen. thank to allah, I'm still alive right now :)

p/s : the accident just a few feet from the cemetery. i believe there must be a reason for what just happen. and i will learn somethings from it. and alhamdulillah again, I'm still alive :)

4- i meet those cikgu-cikgu !!! haahahhhaah !!! habis lah anak-anak murid mereka !!!

Oh Kamu !!!

"if i have to choose, i choose not to choose anything. its too many option and its hard to choose just one."

I Just Miss You

i wish you are here right now.
so i can tell you what had happened to me, how a rough life i been through.
sometimes i just feel like o wanna cry out loud but i can't.

i don't wanna complain bout, life is wonderful.
i always told people that.
just there is time that i don't feel so good.

you know what...
i miss you a lot...
as a friend, as a sister, as a person who always listen when i feel bad.

i wish you are here...
but i know it won't happen.
its almost 3 month since you gone but i still thinking of you.

dear nadia...
i just want you to know that i always keep you close to my heart...

September 11 2009
~I Just Miss You~

Run Budak Nakal Run !!!

kid running make me remind how wonderful world of childhood i have. mostly it about having fun and getting scold for having fun too much. its one in the life time memories. so, run budak nakal run !!!

ThinkFamily

at this post, i actually suppose to post a poem about how people will remember you and its the opposite of what this ads about. i think i need to postpone the post after i watch this.

i download this ads a few days ago but i don't have the opportunity to watch it. i don't know what its all about. i just download its for the sake of downloading, nothing more nor nothing less. but this morning, i suddenly open my lappy and play the video. i don't know what to expect and i don't expect anything.

but in the end, i choose to post the ads on my fb and put it on my blog.

these few month, i always got my miracle from this kind of stuff. anything from television to internet, everything from reading to movie. i got into a misunderstanding just now. but then by watching this ads, i realize no matters how big or small we have problem with our family, there always gonna be around us no matters what happen.

we are not perfect as individual, but as a family we can be perfect by completing each other need.

"sometimes... little things that we didn't notice will make us notice for the rest of our life."

Amani oh Dafi

last two night mama told me this was true. for that truth, she said that i should look at her and granny. what an example !!!! hahahaha... it is really countable when the similarity is on the health ?

but does its the really truth ?

if it is the truth, i didn't make a mistake when i broke up for the few last relationship i had.

Even Angel Falls

miracle [ˈmirəkl]

1 something which man is not normally capable of making happen and which is therefore thought to be done by a god.
2 a fortunate happening that has no obvious natural cause or explanation.

miracle...

it is something that i always believe in. its just come when nobody doesn't expected... when it come, it just come. you'll never know. yup... there is a time when i hope miracle happen but its didn't. but still deep down inside of me, there still a believe it will happen sooner or later.

alhamdullilah... there been a miracle happen to me lately. even though its not that what i really want, but it give me hope... a little of hope. i guess a little will never harm me. if thing goes right, i know its Allah will but if its not, i still believe that its not the time yet to get what i wish for.

i been through a very rough path this year. the road that i step on is not so clear and straight. regret ? no i don't. cos i know, for what had happen... the one who choose the path is me and not anyone else. therefore, there is nothing to regret for. it is a learning process. life learning process is not easy, sometime to understand its, you need to learn it from the hardest way around. as for me, i learn a lot this few month... more than things that i learn before.

to be honest, my life is not so great, its not an easy way around, its not what i wish or dream off. but i don't wanna to complain. damages had been done. there is no way that i can turn back time. I'm sure that i will going to get through this mess sooner or later. and i believe time will heal all those cut, but the scar will always remind me so i won't do the same stupid mistakes again.

btw, selamat berhari raya. enjoy all the open houses that you are going to visit. eat healthy food and don't worry about gaining weight.

rindu pada suatu yang telah terlambat. terjaga tanpa bisa lena.

andai ada peluang untuk sekian kali lagi, pasti akan di tamat kan sebagaimana ia harus di tamat kan.

In loving memory... Nur Nadia bt Salehuddin. 22 May 1988- 17 June 2009

hari ini kamu sudah tiada...

saya tak tau apa yg saya harus buat.

kamu pasti tak tahu apa yang sedang saya buat kan pabila saya dengar berita tentang kamu. saya sedang fikir kan untuk bertemu dengan kamu... bertemu dengan kita semua. saya rindu kan kita semua.

saya baru selesai pilih kan gambar untuk di cuci nanti. saya baru selepas melihat pemberian kamu. kamu ingat tak... frame gambar untuk ulangtahun kelahiran saya. frame yang kamu semua pilih kan untuk saya. saya baru terfikir untuk meletak kan nya.

saya tak tau kenapa... tapi malam tadi saya asyik fikir kan pasal kita semua. ia-nya tiba-tiba. mau bertemu... mau bercuti bersama... mau ber-borak... mau ber-gosip sama kamu semua.

hari ini pabila saya teringat kan tentang kamu... saya harap kan apa yang berlaku adalah mimpi.

pabila teringat kan kamu saya tak tau kenapa air dari mata saya keluar...

rasa sebak ini cuba saya tahan... tapi saya sudah tak punya ketahanan itu lagi...

maaf kan saya... kamu itu lebih dari seorang kawan buat saya, lebih dari seorang teman bagi saya.... lebih dari seorang adik dari adik saya. kamu itu lebih dari keluarga dari keluarga. kehilangan kamu bukan mudah bagi saya. buat saat ini hanya yang maha esa tau apa yang saya rasa...

pasti selepas ini tiada lagi yang akan ketawa pabila saya utara-kan lawak bodoh saya kan.. tiada yang akan melawan pabila saya berhujah. yang pasti tiada lagi yang saya akan marah pabila kamu mengeluh tentang kehidupan. pasti tiada siapa juga yang akan mendengar pabila saya pula yang mengeluh tentang kehidupan...

kamu !!! saya akan cuba tabah kan hati saya ini. saya akan kuat kan hati saya ini. kami semua akan sentiasa kuat kan hati kami untuk kamu. saya pasti !!! kami semua sayang kan kamu. walau apa yang akan terjadi... kamu akan sentiasa berada di hati kami.

tiada kata lagi yang dapat saya luah kan tentang apa yang saya rasa sekarang...

al-fatihah untuk kamu nur nadia salehuddin.

kamu akan sentiasa ber-sama saya. kamu akan senantiasa berada dekat di hati saya. hanya ini yang dapat saya buat untuk kamu pada tika ini. saya harap saya bolehlakukan yang lebih tapi itu semua di luar kemampuan saya.

Alhamdullillah

untuk beberapa hari ini saya amat gracefull kerna selalu di kelilingi oleh mereka-mereka yang sentiasa bersama di saat susah dan senang.

alhamdullillah