A thousand words won't bring you back i know because I've tried, neither will a million tears i know because i've cried.

A thousand words won't bring you back i know because i've tried, neither will a million tears i know because I've cried. 

al-fatihah to you nur nadia salehuddin

i don't really know what i wanna talk about, just it been a year you leave us. but i never forget you. yup...i'm moving on. still you are part of my life... and i don't really lets part of my life easily.

"Word are easy to say, feeling are hard to express.

Photo are easy to snap, memory and moment always gonna be there."

Unknown

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will.

You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts.

You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

The 4th Week Of The 2010

its almost the 4th week of the month, same as the 4 week im back to the campus. there been a lot of different between the current and the past when i was at the campus. the previous years im in campus, its more like enjoys my days, going out, having fun and so little of education. but now its a different...its like i always have assignment every week, a job need to be done, a dateline that need to be rush and to learn the lecturer slang.

i enjoy my stay at campus right now. the studies is so fun, the lecturers is very supportive and the new classmates is crazy. i mean, during the class, laughing is a must and that include the lecturers. its either we who make the joke or the lecturer its self. there also a must debate between the course-mate. to be honest, im enjoy more to be in the class right now compare to my years before. even though, there is a lot of work need to be done, but im enjoy myself here... no pressure of so what ever. its like im go to class, learn new things, talk to the lecturers & friend and make some joke plus listening to the laugh of the class. im happy where i am right now. even, i waste so of my years before...but when i think back, maybe this is what i suppose to do...somethings that always close to my heart but i never realize its until now.

as for now, i will never stop searching for the new things here. lets things happened to me before to be an very meaningful experience.

btw, amin !!! happy belated birthday !!!

Dusty But Not Been Forgoten

Memories...
do not forget, do not let go

~ still remember this ?~

You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future

" I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. "

its gonna be a fresh new start. and its gonna be a long road to go.

its will start and its will end. its just matters how things will end. i want/wish/hope things that happen in past won't be happen again in future.

First Time In Life

salam awal muharram / maal hijrah / happy hijrahi new year !!!

1- i just played my first ever futsal game last weekend. I'm very happy with it. if before this i just heard bout futsal, but by playing it for the first time was a very quite amazing feeling. scored a few goals !!! let go a few goals !!! make fun of people !!! but more than less, people make fun of me as I'm playing as a goalie. yup people !!! its officially & publicly announced that I'm really scare of the ball during my goalie session. hehehehe

2- I'm not with baby mia anymore :( when its time to let go, its time to letting her go. a little of sadness is here and there, but i know she will be in a good care. i done a lot of thinking before, its not that i don't love it or so, but i wanna she to be used, not just keep it save in her bag. what do i know, at time like this... there are more things to be done. and i guess, i won't be accompany by any camera for this time around. bye bye baby mia, my lovely first SLR !!! see you when i see you !!! cheers mate !!!

3- just now, i had my first ever motorcycle accident in my life. as a result, a got a wrist sprain, a scratch here & there, a little bruises and plus a few deep cut near my knee. for that, i got another 2 stitches on the knee, a dressing that i don't really like it (just cos it look funny + look like mat rempit) and a sprain wrist that make still wake up right know cos the pain !!! i can't imagine it !!! btw, i was heading home and i made a mistake while i break my ride. as a result, i been throw by my ride. alhamdullilah, there was no car behind or in front of me. and alhamdullilah as well cos nothing serious happen. thank to allah, I'm still alive right now :)

p/s : the accident just a few feet from the cemetery. i believe there must be a reason for what just happen. and i will learn somethings from it. and alhamdulillah again, I'm still alive :)

4- i meet those cikgu-cikgu !!! haahahhhaah !!! habis lah anak-anak murid mereka !!!

My Dirty Little Secret

its been a while since the last post. since then, are there a lot things happen? i bet not, therefore there was no post for the past month.

nothing happen, its just another plain me & another plain of month. no nothing !!!

i just couldn't sleep tonight. thinking of what i done in the past just make me realize how much of time i wasted over the stupidito and the idiotido i done. yup, there is no way of turn back time. but i had to admit what i did was so cruel. when you disappointed your love one, its make its double right.

to be honest, i been dismissed from the varsity last june. yup !!! i got dismissed !!! meaning i got kick out from the varsity.

only a few know...

and i carry on the burden all alone...

regret ? a lot !!! pain ? its here & there !!! scar ? still couldn't heal !!!

I'm not here to complain. i never complain for what had happened to me. as for me there is no need to complain. in life, we the one who choose our path. if there others who influence me to do what i done, i don't blame them. cos at the end of the choosing process, i the one who choose what i wanna do.

during that period, i done a lot that i never dream to do. i done a lot of wrongs, either from the religion prospective or social life. i betray the trust of my parent for sure. regret ? there a lot to be count.

for what had happened, there must be a reason for it. i may only guess what is/was the reason... but Allah always know the best for me. because of Him and the support of my parent, i still survive getting through His 'test'

yesterday morning, i got a text message from a friend of mine, telling me that the result for the new semester intake just come out. the good new was, my name is one of the people that been accepted. alhamdullilah... but its gonna be a new course... something that close to my heart but i never realize it.

i know, maybe you ain't gonna read this post till the end, or maybe you gonna say that im lucky, or its just "cakap pandai a !!!"

but what i try to say is...

• (i) never ever lost faith in God, for what happen to me, you & us... He always know the best.

• (ii) in life, please don't give up. its doesn't matters what you did/done/happens, if it not according to what you want just don't give.

• (iii) lastly, if you want people treat you as an adult, start be an adult. not try to be, you wanna try, you sit. its time to do thing the right way, not your ways. start to take responsibility !!!

that it for now.

salam sejahtera semua !!!

selamat mengharungi satu hari lagi dalam kehidupan ini.

cheers mates !!!

Oh Kamu !!!

"if i have to choose, i choose not to choose anything. its too many option and its hard to choose just one."

ThinkFamily

at this post, i actually suppose to post a poem about how people will remember you and its the opposite of what this ads about. i think i need to postpone the post after i watch this.

i download this ads a few days ago but i don't have the opportunity to watch it. i don't know what its all about. i just download its for the sake of downloading, nothing more nor nothing less. but this morning, i suddenly open my lappy and play the video. i don't know what to expect and i don't expect anything.

but in the end, i choose to post the ads on my fb and put it on my blog.

these few month, i always got my miracle from this kind of stuff. anything from television to internet, everything from reading to movie. i got into a misunderstanding just now. but then by watching this ads, i realize no matters how big or small we have problem with our family, there always gonna be around us no matters what happen.

we are not perfect as individual, but as a family we can be perfect by completing each other need.

"sometimes... little things that we didn't notice will make us notice for the rest of our life."

Amani oh Dafi

last two night mama told me this was true. for that truth, she said that i should look at her and granny. what an example !!!! hahahaha... it is really countable when the similarity is on the health ?

but does its the really truth ?

if it is the truth, i didn't make a mistake when i broke up for the few last relationship i had.

Respect Others, Do Care Not Just Yourself

these days people just being rude for not a good reason. please look your face at the mirror in your toilet before you blame others. treat people with respect and people will respect you. you treat people like shit, people will treat you worst than shit...

when you make mistake, admit your mistake and apologize. not arguing just because you have more money than other. and for god sake !!! please others !!! if its not your problem don't ever bother to interfere, its just make things worst.

i went to nearby shopping mall with my parent just now and there is this boys who is really rude to the one of the staff at the store. then come from no where the boy's father come and 'mara-marah' this staff. but the thing is his son who make the mistake... he just take the 'baju melayu' to the fitting room without telling the staff and 'suka-suki bapak' left the baju melayu inside the fitting room. so the staff just tell him did he can't do that... so there been an argument between these to people. not a big argument, just the staff tell him what he suppose to do and her boss will be mad if he do that. so the father come with his proud, and kinda 'sound' the staff then he go away. what make me sick is the boy said "Saya customer kan, suka hati saya a !!!" wtf !!! so what if you are the customer. does that make you better than her and scold her in the public. if you don't buy the baju, there others who will.... kurang ajar !!! and i think i know form whom he learn it.

actually the staff was quite good, after the incident she come to my parent asking what they want and they talk like nothing happen. she smile like nothing happen. but we never know how she feel after being embarrassed in the public.

rudeness come in many ways. its doesn't matter what race or religion you are. its doesn't matter how high is your social status and how less money do you have... its just there because (i think) people doesn't treat others with respect and i also think its because people just don't care about others.