"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

things are not the same anymore. people always keep moving forwards, keep moving on, keep lets things go. its a human nature actually. we tend not to things about the past so much. for human being, the past is a history, was a history for them. there are not need to remember about the past.

but when we talking about moving forwards, moving on, keep looking in front and not turning back...honestly are we being sincere to ourselves ? do we really forget all those moment we have. those time we spend together, those meals, those late night hang out, those long way back from mid to college on our tired foot... do you really had forgotten all the memories that we all had together.

i'm not... i'm still not moving on when its come to our moments and memories together. you may say anything you want...but im not gonna lets this things call moments and memories go away.

if only i have the chance...if i have one more chance to see you, just one more time...i just gonna tell you that i really miss you... i want you to be here...at the lowest time of my life, i want you to know i ain't gonna give up yet... and most of all. i just want you to be here

Dusty But Not Been Forgoten

Memories...
do not forget, do not let go

~ still remember this ?~

You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future

" I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. "

its gonna be a fresh new start. and its gonna be a long road to go.

its will start and its will end. its just matters how things will end. i want/wish/hope things that happen in past won't be happen again in future.

First Time In Life

salam awal muharram / maal hijrah / happy hijrahi new year !!!

1- i just played my first ever futsal game last weekend. I'm very happy with it. if before this i just heard bout futsal, but by playing it for the first time was a very quite amazing feeling. scored a few goals !!! let go a few goals !!! make fun of people !!! but more than less, people make fun of me as I'm playing as a goalie. yup people !!! its officially & publicly announced that I'm really scare of the ball during my goalie session. hehehehe

2- I'm not with baby mia anymore :( when its time to let go, its time to letting her go. a little of sadness is here and there, but i know she will be in a good care. i done a lot of thinking before, its not that i don't love it or so, but i wanna she to be used, not just keep it save in her bag. what do i know, at time like this... there are more things to be done. and i guess, i won't be accompany by any camera for this time around. bye bye baby mia, my lovely first SLR !!! see you when i see you !!! cheers mate !!!

3- just now, i had my first ever motorcycle accident in my life. as a result, a got a wrist sprain, a scratch here & there, a little bruises and plus a few deep cut near my knee. for that, i got another 2 stitches on the knee, a dressing that i don't really like it (just cos it look funny + look like mat rempit) and a sprain wrist that make still wake up right know cos the pain !!! i can't imagine it !!! btw, i was heading home and i made a mistake while i break my ride. as a result, i been throw by my ride. alhamdullilah, there was no car behind or in front of me. and alhamdullilah as well cos nothing serious happen. thank to allah, I'm still alive right now :)

p/s : the accident just a few feet from the cemetery. i believe there must be a reason for what just happen. and i will learn somethings from it. and alhamdulillah again, I'm still alive :)

4- i meet those cikgu-cikgu !!! haahahhhaah !!! habis lah anak-anak murid mereka !!!

Oh Kamu !!!

"if i have to choose, i choose not to choose anything. its too many option and its hard to choose just one."

A Speechless Girlfriend - A Clueless Guy - A Jealous Friend

A Speechless Girlfriend - A Clueless Guy - A Jealous Friend

An Indonesian - A Malaysian - A Sabahan
p/s: could this show how mess at that time the relationship between the three state based on the their face expression
(ignore this p/s)

this is one of my favorite picture of the year, maybe its gonna be one of the all time picture i ever have.

what do you think really happen (i) during this moment, (ii) before this moment & (iii) after this moment. if you asking me, i can tell you that i love what happen during all that moment. even though i was on the field before the pic taken, i keep looking at the bench for what happening there. for those who close to me, they may know what is all about.

this is what happen when two close people in my life are not really 'in' for each other. if you in my situation, what would you do ? as for me, at that time of moment i don't know what should i do.

but if there is a movie, about a guy who wish to please everyone around him, especially those who close to him, can this picture be the poster for that movie?

i don't really know what should i write about right now. I'm alone, i drink a glass of nescafe, i ate a lot of banana just now & i'm watching Ada Apa Dengan Cinta.

and again, I LOVE THE PICTURE !!!

I Just Miss You

i wish you are here right now.
so i can tell you what had happened to me, how a rough life i been through.
sometimes i just feel like o wanna cry out loud but i can't.

i don't wanna complain bout, life is wonderful.
i always told people that.
just there is time that i don't feel so good.

you know what...
i miss you a lot...
as a friend, as a sister, as a person who always listen when i feel bad.

i wish you are here...
but i know it won't happen.
its almost 3 month since you gone but i still thinking of you.

dear nadia...
i just want you to know that i always keep you close to my heart...

September 11 2009
~I Just Miss You~

Run Budak Nakal Run !!!

kid running make me remind how wonderful world of childhood i have. mostly it about having fun and getting scold for having fun too much. its one in the life time memories. so, run budak nakal run !!!