"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

things are not the same anymore. people always keep moving forwards, keep moving on, keep lets things go. its a human nature actually. we tend not to things about the past so much. for human being, the past is a history, was a history for them. there are not need to remember about the past.

but when we talking about moving forwards, moving on, keep looking in front and not turning back...honestly are we being sincere to ourselves ? do we really forget all those moment we have. those time we spend together, those meals, those late night hang out, those long way back from mid to college on our tired foot... do you really had forgotten all the memories that we all had together.

i'm not... i'm still not moving on when its come to our moments and memories together. you may say anything you want...but im not gonna lets this things call moments and memories go away.

if only i have the chance...if i have one more chance to see you, just one more time...i just gonna tell you that i really miss you... i want you to be here...at the lowest time of my life, i want you to know i ain't gonna give up yet... and most of all. i just want you to be here

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The 4th Week Of The 2010

its almost the 4th week of the month, same as the 4 week im back to the campus. there been a lot of different between the current and the past when i was at the campus. the previous years im in campus, its more like enjoys my days, going out, having fun and so little of education. but now its a different...its like i always have assignment every week, a job need to be done, a dateline that need to be rush and to learn the lecturer slang.

i enjoy my stay at campus right now. the studies is so fun, the lecturers is very supportive and the new classmates is crazy. i mean, during the class, laughing is a must and that include the lecturers. its either we who make the joke or the lecturer its self. there also a must debate between the course-mate. to be honest, im enjoy more to be in the class right now compare to my years before. even though, there is a lot of work need to be done, but im enjoy myself here... no pressure of so what ever. its like im go to class, learn new things, talk to the lecturers & friend and make some joke plus listening to the laugh of the class. im happy where i am right now. even, i waste so of my years before...but when i think back, maybe this is what i suppose to do...somethings that always close to my heart but i never realize its until now.

as for now, i will never stop searching for the new things here. lets things happened to me before to be an very meaningful experience.

btw, amin !!! happy belated birthday !!!

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Dusty But Not Been Forgoten

Memories...
do not forget, do not let go

~ still remember this ?~

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You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future

" I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. "

its gonna be a fresh new start. and its gonna be a long road to go.

its will start and its will end. its just matters how things will end. i want/wish/hope things that happen in past won't be happen again in future.

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First Time In Life

salam awal muharram / maal hijrah / happy hijrahi new year !!!

1- i just played my first ever futsal game last weekend. I'm very happy with it. if before this i just heard bout futsal, but by playing it for the first time was a very quite amazing feeling. scored a few goals !!! let go a few goals !!! make fun of people !!! but more than less, people make fun of me as I'm playing as a goalie. yup people !!! its officially & publicly announced that I'm really scare of the ball during my goalie session. hehehehe

2- I'm not with baby mia anymore :( when its time to let go, its time to letting her go. a little of sadness is here and there, but i know she will be in a good care. i done a lot of thinking before, its not that i don't love it or so, but i wanna she to be used, not just keep it save in her bag. what do i know, at time like this... there are more things to be done. and i guess, i won't be accompany by any camera for this time around. bye bye baby mia, my lovely first SLR !!! see you when i see you !!! cheers mate !!!

3- just now, i had my first ever motorcycle accident in my life. as a result, a got a wrist sprain, a scratch here & there, a little bruises and plus a few deep cut near my knee. for that, i got another 2 stitches on the knee, a dressing that i don't really like it (just cos it look funny + look like mat rempit) and a sprain wrist that make still wake up right know cos the pain !!! i can't imagine it !!! btw, i was heading home and i made a mistake while i break my ride. as a result, i been throw by my ride. alhamdullilah, there was no car behind or in front of me. and alhamdullilah as well cos nothing serious happen. thank to allah, I'm still alive right now :)

p/s : the accident just a few feet from the cemetery. i believe there must be a reason for what just happen. and i will learn somethings from it. and alhamdulillah again, I'm still alive :)

4- i meet those cikgu-cikgu !!! haahahhhaah !!! habis lah anak-anak murid mereka !!!

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My Dirty Little Secret

its been a while since the last post. since then, are there a lot things happen? i bet not, therefore there was no post for the past month.

nothing happen, its just another plain me & another plain of month. no nothing !!!

i just couldn't sleep tonight. thinking of what i done in the past just make me realize how much of time i wasted over the stupidito and the idiotido i done. yup, there is no way of turn back time. but i had to admit what i did was so cruel. when you disappointed your love one, its make its double right.

to be honest, i been dismissed from the varsity last june. yup !!! i got dismissed !!! meaning i got kick out from the varsity.

only a few know...

and i carry on the burden all alone...

regret ? a lot !!! pain ? its here & there !!! scar ? still couldn't heal !!!

I'm not here to complain. i never complain for what had happened to me. as for me there is no need to complain. in life, we the one who choose our path. if there others who influence me to do what i done, i don't blame them. cos at the end of the choosing process, i the one who choose what i wanna do.

during that period, i done a lot that i never dream to do. i done a lot of wrongs, either from the religion prospective or social life. i betray the trust of my parent for sure. regret ? there a lot to be count.

for what had happened, there must be a reason for it. i may only guess what is/was the reason... but Allah always know the best for me. because of Him and the support of my parent, i still survive getting through His 'test'

yesterday morning, i got a text message from a friend of mine, telling me that the result for the new semester intake just come out. the good new was, my name is one of the people that been accepted. alhamdullilah... but its gonna be a new course... something that close to my heart but i never realize it.

i know, maybe you ain't gonna read this post till the end, or maybe you gonna say that im lucky, or its just "cakap pandai a !!!"

but what i try to say is...

• (i) never ever lost faith in God, for what happen to me, you & us... He always know the best.

• (ii) in life, please don't give up. its doesn't matters what you did/done/happens, if it not according to what you want just don't give.

• (iii) lastly, if you want people treat you as an adult, start be an adult. not try to be, you wanna try, you sit. its time to do thing the right way, not your ways. start to take responsibility !!!

that it for now.

salam sejahtera semua !!!

selamat mengharungi satu hari lagi dalam kehidupan ini.

cheers mates !!!

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