My Dirty Little Secret

its been a while since the last post. since then, are there a lot things happen? i bet not, therefore there was no post for the past month.

nothing happen, its just another plain me & another plain of month. no nothing !!!

i just couldn't sleep tonight. thinking of what i done in the past just make me realize how much of time i wasted over the stupidito and the idiotido i done. yup, there is no way of turn back time. but i had to admit what i did was so cruel. when you disappointed your love one, its make its double right.

to be honest, i been dismissed from the varsity last june. yup !!! i got dismissed !!! meaning i got kick out from the varsity.

only a few know...

and i carry on the burden all alone...

regret ? a lot !!! pain ? its here & there !!! scar ? still couldn't heal !!!

I'm not here to complain. i never complain for what had happened to me. as for me there is no need to complain. in life, we the one who choose our path. if there others who influence me to do what i done, i don't blame them. cos at the end of the choosing process, i the one who choose what i wanna do.

during that period, i done a lot that i never dream to do. i done a lot of wrongs, either from the religion prospective or social life. i betray the trust of my parent for sure. regret ? there a lot to be count.

for what had happened, there must be a reason for it. i may only guess what is/was the reason... but Allah always know the best for me. because of Him and the support of my parent, i still survive getting through His 'test'

yesterday morning, i got a text message from a friend of mine, telling me that the result for the new semester intake just come out. the good new was, my name is one of the people that been accepted. alhamdullilah... but its gonna be a new course... something that close to my heart but i never realize it.

i know, maybe you ain't gonna read this post till the end, or maybe you gonna say that im lucky, or its just "cakap pandai a !!!"

but what i try to say is...

• (i) never ever lost faith in God, for what happen to me, you & us... He always know the best.

• (ii) in life, please don't give up. its doesn't matters what you did/done/happens, if it not according to what you want just don't give.

• (iii) lastly, if you want people treat you as an adult, start be an adult. not try to be, you wanna try, you sit. its time to do thing the right way, not your ways. start to take responsibility !!!

that it for now.

salam sejahtera semua !!!

selamat mengharungi satu hari lagi dalam kehidupan ini.

cheers mates !!!