its been a slow night tonite...i just don't know what i gonna do. i just finish my pop-corn and my lai-ci-kang just now. D.S are quiet right now...there are couple of people here... some are doing their thesis, some are working on the project assignment and some just sitting around here. I'm sit beside the top-up machine, so if you need any top-up... just buzz me.

my yahoo mail keep buzzing... i got a lot of e-mail during this general election. people keep critics each other, but mostly i didn't read all those e-mail. then there also people sent me 3g porno video...didn't upload pun...cos i didn't really need that stuff on my laptop.

somewhere over the rainbow is the song that playing in my ears, not my fav song...but i do sometime listen to slow music, especially when i feel down. i don't actually feel down at this time...disappointed maybe...disappointed for myself. i choose this path...so for all the thing that gonna happen to me, i need to face it. that is the fact !!! i don't blame others...i never blame other for my mistakes...i make a mistake so i have to face it. as easy as that. this is life, life is reality...life is not fairy tales, life cant be reverse...this is not a movie, that i can control everything like i am the director. as for me, i need a kick start...time is running out, but its not a time to give up. i know i got two more weeks to finish up my thesis, the first chapter was rejected... okay !!! so what ??? do i need to feel upset all the time. NO !!! its time to move on... take a new step, start re-doing the first chapter... get the information right, get the fact clear, read all the book i can borrow from the library...its not time to layan this break-down moment. settle down...cool. life is not always perfect...make an effort to get a better life. its time to motivate yourself asyraffaiz !!! you know you can do it.

yup... i drink a lot last night, but at least i didn't get drunk. i choose to drink...but still i cant run away from the problem. i smoke a pack of cigarette, so what !!! i just blow more smoke in this world... and i still have to face the problem... in life,

" sometime the fact doesn't matters, its the truth matters "

I'm suck with my thesis but if i need to extend and do another thesis, i still gonna choose Dato Ahmad Mokhtar Mat Selat as my supervisor, i love challenge, i love compete with the best...so i will learn from the best and be the best.

from now on, i need to appreciate more bout life. not that i didn't, just sometime i don't really enjoying it.

straight in front of me, i see a person who ask other to work with his thesis. yup...he got money. he can buy everything with it. not just typing, she was doing everything for him, from translating to everything...she done everything for him. its life right ??? i don't even care pun. nkje record what they talk about then give it to the Dean. tp tak sampai hati, since i know the person very well, i don't plan to kena-kan dia. so lets it be laa...if he choose that road, lets its be la kan...

time already quarter after 4 in the morning. i think i should going back to my room. i need my sleep cos when i woke up again, its gonna be a brand new days for me. Okay...nite guys

p/s : the last time i smoke a cigarette was when i was 14. now I'm 22...and I'm smoking again. hope this wont last long...