knowin is better then wonderin...

last nite i learn something from a Grey's Anatomy...they said knowin is better then wonderin...by knowin we will know the true n we dont have to wonder or guess what is happen or what will happen...that great... something i thought i will used in my life....
but...knowing r also painfull...

it true !!! just now..i know the true n its was not good at all...i really dont know why until right now i still alife...i hurt...i hurt a lot...its was so painfull that only i the one only know it...its love..trust or the memories...i really dont know...

huhuhhu....arghhhh!!!

at least i dont do the suprise thing today...if not...it would be more painfull for me...i really dont know how i gonna face the world...im a weak person now....i think im the weakest person on this planet...
yeah its pathetic right...my story was so pathetic...but this is me and this is my life...
erm...i hope that someday i will be someone who suppose i be...
ahcap who that people respected..not right now...not ahcap who be over protected...coz you dont want me to get hurt...but really? am i dont get hurt...?
i think my life is like a cancer...it eat slowly my life...i hope i will be able to stand again...wish i will...but until that day...
i will never know what will happen to me...